Changes in our lives

Feeling melancholy tonight.......Today my husband had a 'procedure' which we had been talking about for a while, but could not totally agree on.

I have been against the idea, but wouldn't go as far as demanding he not do it, and he has known how I felt all along. But it was to be a case of no compromise could sort this out.....he wanted it, I didn't - simple as that. I just didn't want that chapter in our lives to be completely closed.

But now it is done.

When we were being told the statistics of success', failures and success' that have turned into late failures, I found myself half-hoping that ours would end up being one of the latter.

So that is why this ends up being a sad blog tonight, feeling sorry for myself :(

Trying to get motivated!!

I am currently on holidays from University until 21st February, 2005.

Now I am finding it hard to get motivated to start getting ready. I have things to do - start working on my Key Selection Criteria for when I finish end of June; start printing and reading the huge amounts of stuff the Lecturers seem to think we have oodles of free time for.

But instead, I sit at my computer, browsing forum upon forum about Myst. Why Myst? Because it is a game I love, a game I am *blush* addicted to, and it has just been announced that MystV is due to be released in September??

Now I haven't even finished MystIV yet, but here I am, drinking in the information like an alcoholic who can't get enough. I think a return to University will be good for me - it will force me away from the computer and my addiction.

That is just my thought for today.......now it's back to browsing forums!! :P

Time to be grateful for the little things

It seems at the moment all we hear about is a tragedy or something bad happening to something or someone. So, for me, it was time to stop and take stock and be thankful for what I have.

I have a wonderful husband who accepts and loves me for who I am. He is caring and does alot for me and our children, and I'm pretty sure I don't thank him enough for what he does.

I have two beautiful children, who, while trying at times, are vibrant and healthy - who could ask for more. We are always being told by others that our 4 year old daughter is "much better behaved than some". I think is hard for us to see that sometimes - I think we can expect too much from our little 4 year old.

My husband has a good paying job and we have the material things we need to be able to live quite satisfactorily. Obviously we would love to have more (most would) but really, we have what we need.

I am nearly finished a University course - and although that has cost a fair amount of money, each time we thought we may have to delve into our savings to pay for it, the money has come from my husband going away. Unfortunately, I had to put up with him being away for 3mths in my first year of University, 3mths in my second year, and 6wks during my third year. Hopefully he doesnt have to go away for a long time during my last 6mths.

Then I was told tonight by a friend about a man who has a tumour at the base of his brain and has just had it removed and is recovering. So that made me grateful for all of our health.

And of course, last but not least, we have our lives. We did not have a Tsunami that ruined our home, family, posessions, Town etc. So we are thankfull for that and hope the people who were affected are able to successfully rebuild their lives, homes and hope.

Thats me - reminding myself to be happy with what I have, as there is always someone else who would love to be in your shoes because they don't have the same.